Day 5 - "I would kill for a carrot..."

I seem to have been in a pattern of blogging about each day the day AFTER. So, to set things straight, we are on day 6 now. By we, I mean me, since #1 I have a habit of talking about I as if there were multiples of me, and #2, my friend Justin has decided to eke out of the cleanse early (Thursday), so really, it is just me now. I'm really happy he came along for the ride with me, even though we're not finishing together, I know that I probably wouldn't have been motivated to start if it wasn't for having someone to experience it with me. Thanks Justin :) We'll eat fruit together tomorrow!

Anyway, today was rough. Actually this whole week has been rough, and I'd like to talk about that. It's not entirely the fault of the fast, although that has definately been a contribution. What I've noticed, though, is that I've been extra emotional lately. I've really had to focus so much attention to my body, and I feel a little apart from this world. Mentally, I'm a little spacey, sometimes I'm quite irritable, and I find I have to rest so much more than I usually do. So, with all that, it means I'm not doing much outside of work and yoga. The most frusturating part this week was a few nights ago. I had to work late, then work early again the next morning. Normally I'd be okay, but I was wiped by 4 pm on friday, and had to cancel my plans to go to this kirtan friday night. (The reason for this was that I would get home late, and have to wake up again for class really early again this morning!)

The fast has made me wake up, in a way, to understanding how my body works, and what it needs - food, rest, and connection with other people. That last one is really important. Lately, I need more hugs, more girl talks, and, right now, I definately need a phone call with my mom! (She's usually called by now.. I guess I'm gonna have to call her) The body is so powerful, and can be SO stubborn and determined, sometimes even more so than the mind. I'm working on finding a balance between my ego and my body's truth, finding a connection between my will to be and my will to do, and finally, finding an ability to be kind - both to myself and those around me - through it all.

Peace, my fruity friends,
Love Brenna